You know when you're pouring the last of a bottle of wine and you think there's just a little left so you keep going, but actually when it hits the glass it's quite a lot and it nearly overflows and is too full and you feel a bit greedy but also happy because MORE WINE? That's how my life feels right now. Like too much of a good thing, and I'm not sure if I want or need any of it. Like this picture, like beautiful things are blowing in and out of my life and I can't quite see through it all to know or focus.
I was talking with a friend the other night, at the Courthouse over pints (which is where so many of my better moments have gone down). I was talking about changing things up. I'm feeling busier than I'd like and bored at the same time. Having more fun than I have in years, being happier in myself and by myself than I think I've known, but still not quite sure about what I want. Maybe everyone feels like that most of the time? At least some of the time? He said I needed to break the routine, that changing one thing would change everything, which I liked. He also said I had beautiful hair and, when he didn't have his eye on the cricket score, that something I'd said would make a good first line for a novel.
It started to rain after a while so we left, but it was a pretty lovely night.
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