I had a moment the other night. It was rainy, I'd messed up a few things that day and found myself feeling those 10 PM feels. When life choices start weighing down on you, the way they tend to on a cold night when you're two glasses of wine deep and feeling overwhelmed by deadlines.
But instead of dwelling on all the things I know for certain that I don't have down right now, I wrote a list. A list of things that make me happy and make me feel better. Things I know are good for me. I still felt like a wreck, oh yeah, absolutely, but I was somewhat more at ease. Small things, like getting up earlier, going for a run, and then putting my head down and doing the work. Nothing will make you feel better except doing the work.
Which is what I've been doing. Or trying for, most days. It does get better. And in the meantime, I should pin that list to my wall or maybe buy this here kerchief.