Long time coming, this particular SUNDAY. Hard to believe that my yoga teacher-training course started six months ago, and here I am done. Exam done and 29 pages of 10-point typed theory done (printed and bound). Just like that. Or not quite 'just like that'. I have spent the last two weeks trying to get it all done, to practice my sequence, to understand the vayus, to embody my own practice, to critique a series of poses I am working on, to practice my sequence a little more, and try and write about a philosophy that is so detailed, so intricate and so foreign to my old head. I also had an epic month at work, with A LOT of overtime, because of course. I came out of my exam at about lunchtime, with not only the stress of teaching my sequence, but the physical exhaustion of four and a half hours of yoga (we each practiced as a student in each other's exam). I slept a good couple of hours of the afternoon away with the ease of it all being DONE. It felt good.
I got some lovely feedback on my class too, which I was pretty happy about. I was, apparently, very confident! I had a strong presence in the room, was articulate, and had a well paced sequence I'm told. I built the class up to tree pose which is a favourite of mine because it is so grounding in the legs, and there is so much lightness in the chest (if you can get a hold on that balance, anyway). In the end, I actually had a good time. I kind of loved it. I hadn't expected to want to actually be a yoga teacher, but there is something wonderful about sharing the practice and the modality with others that I find very humbling. A bit more practice in the park with friends and I might think about it more seriously.
I closed the class with a favourite ee cummings quote, to thank all my fellow students for being so amazing - they were such an inspiration to practice with.
'all I could think of were the stars on the tip of your tongue, the flowers sprouting from your mouth, the roots entwined in the gaps between your fingers, the ocean echoing inside of your rib cage'.